the new normal

Hey all!  It has been a few weeks since my last post so I figured I'd better get back to writing!  I wish I could say that I've been too busy to write but that's a lie.  I've just been too tired and haven't really felt like it!  I usually have writing ideas swirling around in my head but I just couldn't make myself sit down and share!  I am completely burnt out on house searching and Pinterest pinning that I am forcing myself to write!

Speaking of house searching... We found out just over a week ago that we are being sent to the Montgomery field office!   Yay! We were just adjusting to the fact that we were headed to Mobile and were super excited about our possibilities when that oh so important little piece of information was relayed to us.  I have been researching the hell out of Montgomery this week!  I have found a ton of great housing options but really haven't been able to move forward since we aren't moving until November and don't have our house hunting trip scheduled until the first week of October.  So, until then, I'll be printing, saving and dreaming!  Feel free to share any info you might have on Montgomery!  We know nothing and are pretty much going into this blind!

Jeremy came home Labor Day weekend for the first time in 11 weeks!  It.  Was.  Awesome.  Originally he was supposed to come in Saturday morning but we just couldn't wait.  Friday morning I did a quick search and found an earlier flight home for him.  It was a whirlwind day for him as he was gone to training all day and didn't have a single thing packed!  Luckily he got out a bit early and was able to race to his room, pack, and race to the airport.  Although he didn't arrive until 11pm and we didn't get home until almost 1:30 am it was totally worth it.  It was surreal waking up with him, in our bed, in our house, in the morning.  We quickly got back to our routine and it *almost* felt like he had never left.  When Monday morning came I was an emotional wreck.  I knew he was leaving that afternoon and I just wasn't ready for him to go.  I literally cried all day long and when we said our final goodbyes at the airport I lost it.  I cried like a freaking baby you guys.

 

Looking back, it is slightly embarrassing the way I reacted over him leaving however the only person who saw me was Gage.  I could hardly see out of my tear-filled eyes the drive home and when I walked back into our house and could still smell him the tears came again like a flood gate had been opened.  I was seriously crying folks and I'm sure it was the horrifically ugly cry face that comes along with that type of cry.  I honestly think I needed it though.  I had shed a few tears since our emotional reunion at 7 weeks but nothing like this.  As usual, I moped around the rest of the day on Monday, ate almost my weight in chocolate chip cookies, and come Tuesday I was again ready to face the world again.

Our sweet baby boy started preschool on Tuesday the 4th!  I can't believe how fast he is growing up!  Poor thing just didn't want to go to school and I'm sure he got that from me.  When I went into his room to wake him up he was spread out diagonally and his mouth was wide open.  When he woke up and realized it was time to go to school he immediately frowned, rolled back over and said "I don't want to go to school".  Um, newsflash buddy, this here is day one of at least 14 years of school.  I finally got him up, wrestled his clothes on him and made it downstairs for breakfast.  He requested toast "without the skin" and some apple juice.  Surprisingly, and for like the first time ever, we made it somewhere on time.  Although he shed a few tears when I left he had an amazing first day.

ice cream after school!

I realized this morning that what I'm living is now my new normal.  For the last 13 weeks of my life I've been sleeping alone, waking up alone, taking care of my son alone, eating alone... pretty much doing everything alone.  I think I am finally getting used to it and I hate it.  I don't think there is much worse than being separated when all you want is to be together.  Before Jeremy left I couldn't stand to not talk him.  We were constantly texting and calling each other.  Now we sometimes go all day without speaking and sometimes can only get a text message out.  While I like this new non-dependence I still miss him dearly and cannot wait to get back to our life.  I'm sure that things will not immediately return to normal but as long as we are together every morning and every night I will be as happy as clam.

Farewell Friends!